my secret has lick out... and there is nothing much to say. someone find it shocking. but i dont know why they find it shocking.
this few days, i went through the past message or mails that he send me. because they said i was stupid that i can not figure out what he's trying to say. as i was reading through then i understand. but i know it was really too late. i know that time i was just PRETENDING to hate him but still he also can not tell. and the opportunities just went pass... i just cant believe i was so stupid. anyway, i'm prepared that if i got 13points or less for my 'O's, then i will confess. i also know that now its too late. eventhough i confess, i know he would not accept me. but atleast i have done what i want to do for the past three years...

written @ 8:24 PM

Today, its already july. that tell me that the 'O's are coming closer. feeling the preasure and the stress. this is my last year, my final lap to get into a good course in the poly. sometimes, i can not block the temtations. for instance, the game, maple, i want to play during the june holiday to relex myself but i can not download it so i will try and try untill it can. then recently got so much nice movies and tv programme. just really can not control myself. teachers in school also give piles of work and test that make me fall sick. but when i think that that i wanna earn big buck, no matter what, i will sure to force myself to do it.

National day is coming and i join in the school sports day. i run the 100m and got in second. the other team, 4x100m got in first. woow... but the boys was quite disappointing. but i know that atleast 'he' try his best to run fast. today there is also another sports heat. atfirst, he said he is not running. then today last minute he said he is in. i know you live near the cck stadium so he can go home first then come down. i wanted to go there and cheer for them and see how they did. but noone wanna accompany me go as i dont know how to go. so in the end i never go and came home and sleep...

written @ 8:10 PM