Do you guys know something? Last week one of the night while i was sleeping, i dream of him. it is kind of weird. but still.....

this is the first time i dream of him. he ask me out brought me to a cafe for tea. i never thought he will contact me and ask me out. i wanted to reject as i thought that he will bring along friends but then i think back. it is not very nice of me to reject him as this is the first time he ask me out. so i just agree to go with him. when we were there, there was only me and him. i was shock to see that i m in this situation. we never talk but he kept smiling at me. after that he also pay the bill. i wanted to pay or atleast allowed me to pay what i order. but no. he dont allowed me to pay and he insist that he will pay. i was really very happy as i thought that finally he ask me out and buy me lunch. i was really really happy. i thought that there will be other chance that he will ask me out again. then we both walk out of the shop together. the end...
when i woke up then i realise that it was only a dream. i thought its real life. after that i felt quite funny as so many years no sure dream then suddenly come. then i tink slowly and i remember people saying that the dream and real life is the opposit. then i was really got quite worried. its just that i find all this thing happening is just a dream. and most properly it will no happen. i was quite sad but again i think it really might happen. just like now. never talk to him or very long except for his birthday. im in a mess now. i just dont know....

during the holiday cant get a job. so stay at home surf the net and also think alot. but think all those weird weird things. aiya i think i should let nature take its place...

wearing dress sucks but you know you are still a girl. so how? marriage is a huge thing for a women. but i dont look forward to it because i need to wear dress. working in comfortable place and earning big buck sound great. but i have to dress like a office girl. and wearing skirt sucks too. you will ask me. school skirt? only for school. no choice then wear. if possible dont wear unless it is force... life for me sucks...fearing for result already. what about you?

written @ 9:57 AM